2nd passage
It took a lot of restraint to walk away from you.
And the place that reminded me of you.
These little thoughts came to my mind:
How was your day?
Did you have your breakfast?
Were you eating well?
Did you think of me?
Did you ever miss me?
I missed you a lot.
I thought of you, every single day.
And I wanted to talk to you.
I craved talking to you so badly, that I'd leave whatever I was doing and go out, even in the bitter cold, and stand outside, sometimes in the middle of the night, trying to forget you.
I knew you wouldn't have wanted to talk to me.
So I held myself back. I stopped myself.
Recently, I had some bad days.
I was in a lot of pain.
I kept thinking of you.
I wanted to talk to you.
I wished you were with me, to keep me company.
But I knew you wouldn't want to.
When will I forget you?
I don't know.
It's harder to forget someone when you have no one.
Because then, you remember, the one that you had.